Kyle is breaking up with me cause he says he’s in love with someone else who he’s met like 4 times whos in the army with him and we just got a new apartment with a year lease and all our stuff from ontario is in it (39 boxes of crap) that my dad JUST spent $1500 sending to me so I can’t just leave and I can’t kick him out cause I have no job and I can’t live with me aunt cause she doesn’t want sammy there cause she says he’s wrecking her lawn plus it’s way too far from Vancouver for me to find work there especially since I don’t drive plus there’s no room for any of my stuff so I’m trapped living with my ex in a 1 bedroom apartment while he courts some girl who’s still in a relationship with someone else but is always flirting with him and I feel like I’m going to have a heart attack. And he’s literally the only person I know in this province so I still need him for emotional support and companionship because my family barely talks to me and no one else does either and u just don’t know what to do. I feel so stuck.
I can’t even go home cause there is no home. No one in my family lives in mississauga anymore and London has one if the highest unemployment rates and I’m just so so stuck and fucked and stupid. I feel so so stupid right now. I feel like I’ve ruined my life by moving across the country with someone who I was totally in love with who says he’s in love with the first girl who’s close to his age and flirted with him. He hasn’t even cried or acted upset. I was sitting here crying and he was smiling to himself thinking about her. I gave my heart to someone who apparently doesn’t have one or at least not a piece of me in it.
I’m seriously about to have a virtual doctors appointment over FaceTime on my phone. This is with a legit doctor, will be paid for with my provincial health care, and they will send my prescription directly to my chosen pharmacy which I’ve already put into the system.
Signed up for the service 15 minutes ago and seeing a doctor in 2 minutes. This is pretty awesome. Technology has come a long way.
My dad shipped out all of our stuff from Ontario. 2 skids, 39 boxes. I’m buried in boxes in this tiny apartment. Kyle is away this weekend and I unpacked 15 boxes by myself yesterday, so I’m really proud of that. Another long day of unpacking ahead of me. Almost done with all the boxes we have at the apartment but there are still just as many left at my aunts house. I definitely should have taken a before and after picture.
Went on an 8km hike, came home and made red lobster biscuits for dinner. Life is good.